November 27th, 2010

For the first time in my life,

or at least that I can remember,

I am going to fail and accept the fact.

I'm not rushing to catch up,

nor am I lying to hide my lack of success.

Honestly, 

I am not going to win, 

and I'm okay with that.

Hey, it's been a while. Basically, NaNoWriMo is a No-Go this year. Less than 10,000 words. I started really strong, but got distracted, and then had stress coming at me from all different angles. Normally, I'd be freaking out, spazzing and trying to catch up. But really, doing that would only stress me out more. I didn't finish NaNoWriMo. I've a 66% success rate. It's passing, at least.
I am going to finish my novel though. I didn't realize how much I prefer to write by hand until recently. So I'm going to print out my 9,000+ words, and start over. My point of view is going to change, the time line will be tweaked. I'm going to like it more. Much, much more.
This blog will continue, as will my writing. I'm okay with that too.

Write Long & Edit,
Sarah

November 13th, 2010

I've yet to write, but I plan on writing later today. Well, I take that back. There's been a bit of poetry, free verse and otherwise, happy and not. I've gone through my last 3 sketchbooks, reading everything I wrote in them. I find it almost amusing that my emotions are clear on my face, and through the pages. The angry images, seem to almost be captioned with even more vicious words.
So, I guess the friendship that began last year, the one that spawned this years NaNoWriMo is pretty much over. I never got to cause the scene I wanted too, or ask her to take the metaphorical knife from my back, but hey. And the funny thing is, she was done after I called her out on something. At least this time, I won't be seen as the "bad guy" for blowing her off. Like I was the first time, since no one knew any information other than the fact that I wasn't speaking to her, and thought I had lost it.
Part of me wants to spew the anger and animosity I feel right now, but I won't. It's because I don't just forget problems or get over things. After I lose trust in someone, it's not instantaneously gained back. Oops. I will just put it all toward my NaNo.
Thanks Taylor, for all the writing Material.

Sarah

November 11th, 2010

I haven't written since the 8th. Word block paired with much to accomplish isn't conducive to NaNoWriMo. Drama and college preparation aren't helpful either. I'm done complaining now, Sorry.

Sarah

November 8th, 2010

It's been days since I've written anything for my NaNoWriMo. I've drawn, taken photos and written angry poetry, but not worked on my novel. I'm behind now, even though I was Days ahead in the beginning. I'm already dealing with the anxiety of being behind on that, plus signing up for college, high school & AP work, and stress at home, it's just starting to drive me nuts. At least my nano count is Over Nine Thousand.

Sarah

November 4th, 2010

I'm so close to 9 thousand, I can barely stand it. I don't want to do anything but write. But, alas, I must do other things, like eat, sleep, and go to school. I want to reach 10,000 words tonight, but my fingers are so cold, and typing with gloves on is quite difficult. I've actually created some fictional events in my fictional novel, I think I've made a break through.

 Just one question: If we're all mad here, why am I so happy?

Write long & Edit,
Sarah

November 3rd, 2010

Before I say anything, I just realized I wrote 11/2/10 on my papers in school.... Anyway.
I AM WRITING FICTION. I need to keep reminding myself that. I'm using actual events as a basis for my NaNo novel this year, but I've followed the timeline so strictly, that it's hard for me to "make stuff up." But, I'm five thousand words in thus far (almost six thousand) and finally starting to deviate from the truth. Which is good, because the majority of all the exciting things I've ideas for are toward the end, so I need to not bore myself to tears writing this.
So, I'm hoping to hit seven thousand, if not more tonight. If I don't, there's always tomorrow. Now, to make some hot chocolate and Grab my snuggie.

Write Lots,
Sarah

November 2nd, 2010

With freezing fingers and sapped creativity, I post this as swiftly as I possibly can. So far, tis going well. I just want to get this biznatch of a story out of me, so I can go back and edit it. I am currently about 4,800 words in, and so far it feels uninspired and lame. I just want to cut crappy parts out, and change things I've already written. But, then again, that's not the true spirit behind NaNoWriMo, is it?

You can Write It WriMos!
Sarah

November 1st, 2010

NaNoWriMo has begun, finally. Though, I can't say much, considering I was asleep at midnight. I feel like absolute rubbish, but I've hit 1729 words, meaning I just slightly passed my goal for today. I'm on track. (Mind you, I always start out that way. I just never finish on track, I spazz toward the end.)
So far, Bryony George has let it be know, that she does know the whereabouts of Eloise. Chapter one has finally begun, with her telling the story of her and Eloise's meeting. Unfortunately, I've already hit a boring block of explanation. So, the next time I go to write, I'll take a machete to the block, and make it more about action than explanation. If that will work, I  know not.
Checking my Nano buddies page, I have found myself 24 words behind one of my buddies. I'm much to competitive and will now be typing at least 25 more words. Damn, my mind is scattered due to Nano, and the fact that I am ill. Is this coherent? I don't know.

Sarah