It's difficult to find time for writing, when you're always doing things for others, or in a mass of paranoia. Oh, and don't get me started about being a paranoid mass that's trying to do things for others. I am now unable to focus on too much, am exhausted and have thoughts more scrambled & unorganized than those of Prufrock. I just want to hibernate for a while, and see if that helps. I want to be less paranoid.
Sarah
Showing posts with label Rambles. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rambles. Show all posts
2/18/11
1/31/11
January 31st, 2011
The month is come to a close, as has the thought of me pursuing my goal since primary school. I feel as though my life is a mess, and for some reason just have one question: if I were to write of angsty teens, would anyone want to read it? ....Well, I've thought a lot about art projects too. Yay, coping mechanisms.
Oh, next month is FAWM. February Album Writing Month. 15 songs in a month, and I'm participating. You may get to see some lyrics if I get time and focus to post them.
Oh, another random thought, if I'm posting less than usual in the next few weeks, my parents have locked me up for being a rubbish student.
I'll stop rambling on, since I've no clue what I'm really saying.
FML,
Sarah
Oh, next month is FAWM. February Album Writing Month. 15 songs in a month, and I'm participating. You may get to see some lyrics if I get time and focus to post them.
Oh, another random thought, if I'm posting less than usual in the next few weeks, my parents have locked me up for being a rubbish student.
I'll stop rambling on, since I've no clue what I'm really saying.
FML,
Sarah
1/15/11
January 15th, 2011
What have I realized? Every prompt I've thought up has been a dystopian sort of black hole. Sure, there is nothing wrong with that and it's a nice change from "hooray! happily ever after," but it's still hard to not over-exaggerate. There is a fine line between how much the world sucks and how harsh a place it can be, and a terrible teen-angst driven exaggeration.
It would probably help if I wasn't in the terrible mindset that I currently inhabit. I've been taking most everything personally, as I'm paranoid and walking on eggshells around most people. You add the assumption that everyone is irritated by me and/or something I've done or said, and it's a terrible land of headcase-y spazz-ness... and made up words.
I've also found that I am almost never in the environment that allows me to spew words like I have been in the past. Tis a shame, but I'll live. I must, life goes on.
Sarah
Also, to kill time I was wandering around blogconfession and had the misfortune of letting stupid posts bring me down. I suggest not doing the same. Especially # 6859.
It would probably help if I wasn't in the terrible mindset that I currently inhabit. I've been taking most everything personally, as I'm paranoid and walking on eggshells around most people. You add the assumption that everyone is irritated by me and/or something I've done or said, and it's a terrible land of headcase-y spazz-ness... and made up words.
I've also found that I am almost never in the environment that allows me to spew words like I have been in the past. Tis a shame, but I'll live. I must, life goes on.
Sarah
Also, to kill time I was wandering around blogconfession and had the misfortune of letting stupid posts bring me down. I suggest not doing the same. Especially # 6859.
12/5/10
December 5th, 2010
The SAT is over, and once I finish re-writing my government notes, I shall be able to really get writing. I love the prologue that I wrote this November, but I found the six and a half chapters I wrote to be dull and uninspired. First person isn't my forte, but I lose interest in third. I sincerely doubt it will follow any real events near as close as I had planned. Plus, I'm pretty much animosity free now (in fact, twice now I've picked up my phone & contemplated texting or calling), so I'm not that much into it in the first place. But hey, I'll be filled with the winter blues in no time, so I'll come up with something. Really, I'm just hoping my tendency to lean in a melancholy sort of direction will assist me, but not aid the procrastination in slowing me down.
In other news, my dreams like to taunt me, I read much too slowly for my own liking, and I am absolutely, irrevocably in love... with Pears. They are quite delicious. Especially when they are still pretty firm.
Sarah
In other news, my dreams like to taunt me, I read much too slowly for my own liking, and I am absolutely, irrevocably in love... with Pears. They are quite delicious. Especially when they are still pretty firm.
Sarah
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